End of Season

It is officially the end of growing season. We had snow on the ground here in Florida and I lost a whole bunch of plants. But it was expected. So not a major loss. I lost the green beans, winter corn, bell peppers, melons and squash. I pulled everything up yesterday and today. So now all that is left are herbs, salad greens and marigolds. Time to add compost, manure, peat and fertilizer then cover everything for spring. I have to say I am really looking forwards to spring. Last year it was a struggle to get the soil corrected as it was mostly sand. Plus I had no idea what I was doing lol.

Now the soil will be fertile and ready for planting. I just need a few things like mulch and such when the time comes. Its kind of nice! So the more work I get done now, the less work later on. And this time I will have way more freedom with it as I have complete control of the garden and what is in it. I want to add a new section outside of the current garden to move the Herbs to so I dont have to keep moving them around. Then I can tag them so people will know what is there. Currently, if you dont know what you are looking for, you cant really pick herbs from the garden. It is kind of hodge-podge where the herbs are concerned. We shall see.

I have a full plan for the garden for sure. I am going to plant the 3 sisters again and hope we dont get beetles. And green beans, both bush and pole. Mostly the things that were successful this last year but MORE as they were just testers before. Fingers crossed!!

No work today

The garden is being bombarded by Ice cold rain. The wind is constant and I am quite sure I have lost most of the crops there. But that is weather. In Florida we don’t see much in the way of winter. In fact we jokingly say its the “Three Days of Winter.” Well it is happening now but its wet and windy and utterly yuck outside. I think the eggplant will be fine as I picked all the fruit. The bean plants are mostly bare and the melons are either green or picked. The lettuce and the corn are the only things I worry about. I planted a winter corn, Painted mountain, that is suited for extremely cold climates. I am not sure if they are a match for the wet part though. We shall see. But in the end, I am in the process of closing out the garden anyways. I am adding compost, manure and peat moss to the cleared out spots and then covering them in plastic to “cook” until spring.

After the weather breaks I will venture outside and check on everything. I have little doubt I lost all the lettuce. But the cabbage may still be OK. I did not have time to make hoop huts to protect them. Oh well. Nobody is eating the lettuce anyways. Prep for next season it is. Oh and a buddy of mine got a tiller so it will only take about 30 minutes to do the whole bed instead of a couple of hours.

On the property, I got so much mowing done I am so thrilled. I mowed down all the new growth so we got back everything we did last year, and have pushed farther into the old growth exposing areas that have not seen sun in at least a decade. My roommate came out and did some pole saw work and we cleared around the biggest tree out there. It is beautiful. It has Big vines going up and down the trunk and is bigger around than I can wrap my arms. I honestly didnt even know the tree was there because of how this the vegitation is.

Today is a nap day for sure

Today in Therapy

My Therapist is Irish. He is really cool, no nonsense, no fluff. I like him a lot. He listens, then points out a few things so I draw my own conclusions in many cases. Today he said, after hearing about me in high school and then in college, that I have had some pretty mixed messages. He had asked why I throw myself so hard into things like work. In High school I was always told (by teachers and such) that I would never succeed, never amount to anything. So I decided to prove them wrong and be amazing. So in college I was an Honors Student, in the Honors Society and almost top of the class. They told me there I could do anything, do whatever job made me happy and make a lot of money. So I am a failure that can do anything…….. Well, if I can do anything, WHY have I not gotten the job at work as a Trainer? I have applied more times than I have fingers and toes twice over. He agrees that I am not an “Indoor Girl” and that my being happy there is almost impossible, hence the current situation. He suggested I start shopping for jobs. Only problem with that is, what company in their right mind would hire somebody with my limitations, let alone pay what I need or offer health insurance that is worth even half of what I currently have? Plus if I had to change insurance, what insurance company would take me with MS?? He said to just try anyways because I am only looking at the negative and that there is something out there for me. So I failed but I can still do anything……. I am confused. I am sure there is a lesson in this exercise but I cant see it. My head hurts. I am going to bed

coffee first, THEN meds

I had a horrible migraine last night and had to take my rescue med, which puts me to sleep in 30 minutes flat. So you can imagine when I woke this morning I was very groggy. I made my coffee, took my morning meds and sat down to drink said coffee. Then I realized I took my night time meds by mistake. Thankfully its not an overdose situation, but it does mean I will be going back to sleep shortly. I am frustrated because I have Dr appointments every day this week and I needed to get stuff done today before todays appointment. But I dont have a choice now as there will be no driving for at least 3 hours. Requip makes me very sleepy. Nite nite

I got My CAR BACK!!

I am thrilled that I got my car back. Also today was grocery day. Not just any grocery day, but HUGE grocery day. My roommate get a 1 day only employee discount on 1 total purchase for 15% off. That meant I had to brave Wal-Mart……… Exhausted Now! And I still forgot the propane and a few other things, but after waiting in line to check out for 30 minutes, I didnt care. I got all the groceries in and all the cold stuff put away, but everything else is gonna sit there for a while.

Off to pick up my daughter, drop in on my PCP to SEE that they sent my medical docs and then to Therapy. There was something else but I cant remember right now.

Short term disability

I have been out of STD for a while now and STILL haven’t been paid. I was to trust that work will take care of me. What a joke. Everything is past due, my Credit Cards have been closed and I am so close to loosing my RV it isn’t funny anymore. My credit is ruined.  I am not sleeping again. I finally fell asleep around 2 am, and I woke up around 5am. I just laid there trying to go back to sleep but I was dreaming about all the things that are going wrong right now, so sleep is not happening. I dreamed I was at work arguing with a customer like always and my sup came by and told me I am not allowed to be there because I haven’t been released to return and that I had missed too much time and was not excused and I was fired. My jaw hurts from clenching. I considered applying for a job at Tom Thumb but there is no insurance there. Not like I am gonna get any better with treatment anyways……..  I finally got up after not being able to shut my brain off to the thought of just going back to work and forgetting that I ever thought I was depressed or unwell and what I need to do to fix the mess I have made. I am just weak and need to suck it up and do my job like everybody else. I am letting everyone down and I have done this to myself. There is no reason for me to worry about “getting better” and “relaxing” because this is all some stupid fantasy I came up with to make myself feel special. I am not special, I am lazy. MS is just an excuse to let myself go. I don’t know what I was thinking. I need to go back to work now. Nothing else matters. I need to figure out how to make my eyes quit watering so much and start making phone calls to get my release to go back to work as possible. I have been so stupid. Suck it up. What a joke

Ugh

Yesterday I had a Chiropractic visit with P-wave and PT. Plus last night I went back to ballet class. I hurt. Mostly hips and shoulders with minor sore muscles. Plus something is blooming that is making my sinus’ go insane!!

Ballet was not as bad as expected in some ways and way worse in others. Leotards are unforgiving already, but with 1 wall being 1 huge mirror, you cant really look away. Its hard to see how much weight I have gained. It is affecting my dancing, the way my shoes fit and my center of gravity. Plus my feet have lost a lot of flexibility so I had a really hard time getting on pointe. My thighs are thicker now so anything close together require serious squeezing. The new music for recital is very…. athletic!! Which is good, but there is no 1st beat before we start moving so everybody is behind from the very beginning. It starts with a leap!! Kind of need to be on time for that!

I kept up ok and I ignored what I looked like in the mirror so I could correct my lines, but man I need to do something about this or I wont be able to keep dancing on pointe. This weight gain is really getting me. More water, less and better snacks, smaller portions and a walk every day. Easier said than done, but I am gonna try.

Homestead updates

I got word that there is now city sewer on the block at the end of my property. So now I dont have to fret so much about a septic tank. That is great news because there are wetlands on my property and I was looking at $8-10K for an above ground septic system plus all the perk, permit and survey fees. Yikes!!  That means that come income tax time, I can get a sewer tap and electric. Then its water, which there are already lines and a water box there, which is a major cost cutter.  Tap fee is $2500 where as reusing a tap is only $200.

I am trying so hard not to make garden plans yet, but it is really hard lol. This weekend I will be taking some of my trees out there to plant. I have 9 blue spruce trees that will be part of the hedge/living fence that really need out of their pots. I am also trying not to think too much about the chickens I want because it is too soon. I need to get a fence up though. The ordinance is odd for fences in that area. 10 feet back from the road and no taller than 4 feet in the front yard, so hedge behind the fence. I personally would like a privacy fence that is 8 feet tall to keep any animals in and people out. Also I don’t want everybody in the area to see all my fruit trees and such. I have 2 apple, 2 plum, 2 fig, 2 blueberry and 1 peach sitting on my porch in pots. I still want some citrus and nuts to add to the orchard, but I have a lot of clearing that needs to be done out there plus utilities before they get a permanent home. My neighbor wants to get some goats out there to do the clearing for us, but for that to work, I have to get the fences up. UGH such a big and expensive job!! All i can hope for is some of my strong friends to come out and help because there is no way I can do it myself.

Ok I am gonna try and sleep again. 2 posts on this sleepless night.

Cats are weird

About a year and half ago we adopted a cat from Petco. All their dogs and cats come from the Humane society and are fixed, up to date on shots and need loving families. I wanted a kitten, but this bi-color eyed (one blue, one green) fat cow colored cat stole me heart. Her name was Fancy, and she, and her sister, once belonged to an elderly lady who could no longer take care of them. Her sister had been adopted a while back so she has been alone a long time. Well, we changed her name after I spilled ground sage on the floor and she treated it like catnip. Also, whenever I burn sage, she is so silly.

Her name is Sage now, and she says Hi. Actually says Hi! She will jump up on the bed or the couch with me and I say Hi, she responds every time with a clipped squeaky meow. (broken voice box, so she more quacks than meows) She is obsessed with the shower. Every time I leave the door open, she is in there licking the water off the floor. I keep her water fresh, but she wants it from the shower. She also wants it from my cup. If there is condensation on the outside, she licks every drop off.

When I climb in to bed, she will come say hi, but goes and plays. Until Kevin comes in the room. As soon as he heads this way, she jumps in and has to be in the middle.  During the day you will find her sitting on top of the couch staring out the window at the neighbors dogs or spread eagle on the floor. Don’t touch her belly though, cause she will bite you. Right this moment she is spread out like a 2 year old on the bed, sound asleep and purring like a diesel. How can something her size take up so much space?

Her favorite toy is a ball of paper from 1 type of notebook. If you toss her a paper ball from anything else, she just walks away. She is also a pen clepto. I have to hide my pens and even hide when I am using one because she will come and steal it right out of my hand! I need to get a yard stick to fish under the slide and see how big her collection is.

Living in the RV is fine with her as long as she can see outside. Well, that’s not true. She REALLY doesnt like it when the RV moves. She is terrified of travel and will hide in the worst places like under the drivers seat. So she has to travel in a crate. I feel so bad for her because she yowls the whole time and refuses to eat or drink in there. When we stop I always pull her out, but she still wont eat or drink. I think the 1st time we moved the RV (8 hour trip) with her in it, she felt her home had betrayed her. But on the way back, we let her stay outside the crate for a lot of the trip. Unfortunately she kept trying to climb under my feet while driving and climb in to my lap. Back to the crate 😦

She is fat. She has a saggy tummy and weighs 13 lbs. I have tried several types of food including weight management, but she wont eat it or gets sick. We feed her twice per day, 1/4 cup which is what the vet recommended. Well she picks out the bits she likes and is begging like we are starving her to death. We keep her food in the bathroom (she is a thief) and the 2 hours before she gets fed, she is tripping everyone who goes in there.

Cats are weird, or at least our cat is.

 

Theraputic Tools

So a friend is remodeling/expanding his bathroom and asked me to help. Today we had to take down a wall. Who knew Tearing down sheet rock with a hammer could be so refreshing!! My arms are jello now, but I have to say, If you are stressed, its a great Theraputic Tool!!!